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I’m a prisoner in the cage of rejectional fear. Paralyzed and stripped of my better judgment by this containment. Fighting for freedom within these self-made boundaries. A revolution in the works, a way out of these restrictions. Wait, you will see! I’ll manifest from within this prison. I am my own prisoner

So due to a series of radical actions my letter plans have been postponed, it seems that ” Oops I did it again”. Overly thought and overreacted, it’s not my fault I feel so intensely! 

 I don’t think I have ever really chased  a guy after they stopped texting me but I am going to be the persistent one for the first time in my life. I have nothing to lose really. I didn’t know him before, I didn’t have him before so in other words I have nothing to lose and so much to gain. I need to stop being so scared of rejection and do it.

It seems like we are all scared of something but it’s just so difficult to accept it. How many of you are scared of rejection? I know someone that has NO fear of that, he goes up to ANYONE and regardless of the outcome he’s fine. I fear rejection so much that I rather not go up to anyone.Thank you friend for making me realize that rejection is only part of life.

At church they talk about how God is always there that he does everything for you and all you have to do is simply ask for it. I use to take that so literal, but now I see that it’s more of a motivational thing, since God gives me everything I just need to go and get it, not sit and wait for something to happen. Nothing just falls on your lap.

Therefore I am not going to back down from this letter, just going to wait for the air to clear a bit, the debris from the bomb I set off still lingerings. Meanwhile I have to fuel the “Letter Movement” ha ha. I remember my friend Tatiana always spoke to me about writing “love” letters and her voice keeps ringing in my head, now let me tell you this girl is a poet! She is my stimulus for this letter. It’s such a personal way of communication, not so effortless like an email, text, fbmassage and tweet. 

This is really eating me up you guys. Here I go following the beat of my heart!

xoxo Gossip Guy

Tonight I find myself in a poetic state, a sense of romantic nostalgia is you will, a feeling once forgotten, yet so familiar now resurfaced. As we grow and evolve we  realize things about ourselves that no one else can really pin point, things so deeply hidden that only YOU encounter. Emotions.

All of my friends know that I’m an emotional wreck, a raging fire of passion, filled with feeling that  over flowing and engulf me completely. A friend once told me ” sometimes you just feel for the sake of feeling, no matter what you feel” in sense I agree. I will at times just sit and make myself feel, but what is life with no feeling? BORING if you ask me.

I recently met someone that simply takes my breath away with a single glance, the first night we met I  hardly even looked at him to just keep my composure! When we finally struck conversation I was dumb founded, I could barely formulate a sentence. Needless to say he was breath taking. That night we all parted our ways and went home.

The next day, of course I thought about the next time I would see him. Little did I know that he had his own plans, he text me and I swear the people around me stopped moving I could NOT believe it! We text then skyped and finally met, all in one night! The first kiss was momentous, he had me and he knew it! The entire week we were hooked on each other texting, talking and interacting with such an ease. This man (who will remain anonymous) opened up so quickly and deeply that all I wanted to do was know more. He had me in the knook, laying on his chest and talking for hours. His words, both via text and in person left my smiling and glowing each time. When we were together we just talk about anything and of course the kissing was endless and the rest was heated to say the least. Beyond heated in fact, like we could have burn the house down. For the record, we did not get crazy if you know what I mean.

After a week of though he backed off, maybe I was too strong? I thought, then I remembered that  I was reacting to his actions. I was just following his lead till he made a sharp turn and I was unable to follow. I remember him saying that he usually doesn’t let people to close and if they do he closes up… It’s been 3 days of this distance. ” When I see something I want I go after it” he said one night. I am not that kind of person and never have been. “I wish I could receive a love letter, I’ve never received one” as we conversed another night. 

This said I think it’s time for me to act! I will write him one. No emails, no text, no tweets, or message through a friend. A good old written letter, delivered my yours truly. Just like he came after me I shall go after him this time. I have nothing to lose and so much to gain. So here I go, on hand made paper, ball point black ink pen and envelope address to this green eyed piece of art.

Wish me Luck! 

Alexander Wang Fall2010 RTW                                                                                                                               It’s that time of year again, where everyone starts shopping for the events to come. When new trends and styles move in the wind, and inspiration is only a breath away.. Fall! All gray tones, black stocking, leg warmers overlapping the shoe, front platform heels, fitted vests are all in style for this fall. After sitting here for weeks watching fashion show after fashion show I feel confident to say what’s in! New York Fashion week launched off with the biggest fashion show in the history of fashion on Tuesday September 7th for the second annual Fashion’s Night Out!
Check it out:

    http://www.cbs.com/specials/fashions_night_out/web

Girl’s don’t be afraid to tuck in the graphic-t into your skirt, just look at the opening of the FNO Fashion Show. I promise you can rock it!

Gilded Age Spring 2011 RTW

Guys it’s hot in Miami, I’m sure you wouldn’t mind being a little cooler by rolling you your straight fit only pants up to your ankle, as long as you have your boat shoes on ;D

Love Life, Live Love and Love Fashion. The Stylejunkie